I terribly hate talking in front of people.
I wasn’t always this way. In elementary school I was fine giving presentations and speeches, and all that. Even in middle school I had no problems; I was shy but never had a problem going up in front of the class. And then one day in English class in ninth grade, I was giving a presentation on a book. I didn’t even have to stand up; I was just sitting. I didn’t really have anything exact prepared, and then it happened: my voice started shaking. It got really bad and awkward and I couldn’t think of anything to say. As I rambled, I realized I hadn’t breathed in a while. I had to stop talking, pause, and take a deep, shaky breath. It felt like every second was dragging by; every moment I wasn’t talking, it was a deathly long silence when in reality it was only 2 or 3 seconds. My cheeks felt like they were getting hotter, and my voice was wavering and wobbling. I ended with a weak ‘and…yeah.’ and so it began. Ever since then, I’ve had the same problem: my voice starts shaking while I’m giving a presentation. It’s led to me having anxiety whenever I’m told we have to present, and nerves days in advance. Sometimes if I know I have to give a presentation soon, I have a hard time sleeping because I become so preoccupied with it. About twice since then, it hasn’t happened to me while I was presenting. I’ve been so relieved every time it doesn’t, but I have no idea how to stop it every other time.
Anyone else inflicted with the agony I have when I know I have to give a presentation? I’d love to hear your stories and how you cope with it. I wish I wasn’t like this, I need to find a way to fix it! Why can’t I go back to how I was before? D: